So I have always struggled with my self image, probably since I was in elementary school.  I was in a good place with my self image right around when I had gotten pregnant and then, well, I got pregnant.  My self image sort of improved actually because I always have felt that pregnant women are beautiful.  I did have some issues during my pregnancy however because up until the last few months, I was the only one pregnant out of all of my girl friends, and all my girlfriends are skinny.  Then, I had the baby, and within days my stomach significantly shrunk.  I was feeling pretty good, until I tried to put on some prepregnancy clothing.  You can only guess how good that went.  My tops too small, my bottoms too tight!  About the only thing that still fit were my warm-ups and my underwear.  I had gone up about 3 cup sizes in my bra so of course my button top tops no longer fit, and still had some extra fluff left over from the pregnancy.  

Its been 3 and a half months since Eli was born, and still, I remain unable to wear most of my clothing.  For my birthday I was given money to go shopping, but still, its hard to shop knowing I have about 3 pairs of bermuda shorts,  8 pairs of capris that I can’t even get into, but still expect to.  I bought some new shirts,but I figure, why go for the pants when I have so many at home.  It is so frustrating!  I do have some jeans that fit though because I went out and bought some a size up from my normal size, just so at least I could wear some sort of pant that was not too tight or maternity.  So I guess this is just my vent.  I’m really wanting a jogging stroller but can’t seem to get the deal on craigs list because it gets snapped up before I can bargain for them.  Oiy, well they say, 9 months to gain, 9 months to lose.  I’m not patient enough, I’m sick of it.  Oh heck, I’m making myself a milkshake.

Jessica herself